Pessimism Vs Optimism In The Love Games

Pessimism Vs Optimism In The Love Games

Her tumblr is filled with romantic, fairy tale things, love quotes and lovey dubby crap like that
shes like a teenager in disguise.
The ditzy,
the airheaded,
optimistic,
fickle
ways of a girls mind.
Is that what men look for?
Someone whos constantly waiting to be rescued,
the damsel in distress..
the naive ones that will believe everything that is told to them
but one always out weighs the other.
I know its alot to take in.
Yet it seems like women who are more realist,
pessimistic,
level-headed,
independently motivated
and trying to take control of their own lives are losing in the love game.
Considered a bitch.
That way of thinking used to exist a long time ago.
So far in fact, that I can’t remember when.
Always having doubts with whatever man that decided to give an ounce attention.
You are not it.
Not because they weren’t good enough,
but because there was never a chance to care enough.
Never interested.
Lately,to admit, I have been experiencing a weird sensation in the pit of my stomach.
Butterflies that I never existed started to flutter.
It feels so weird.
It feels wrong, like a guilty pleasure.
Can’t resist it,
the smile on this face just doesn’t seem to fade.
Feeling giddy.
Frivolously silly.
The feeling as if I know everything about him, no secrets.
Yet, feel like there’s something to learn everyday.
This feeling may not be forever, but I’m grateful.
Never imagining myself being so carefree and willing.
For this I thank you, because I never knew it was possible after all I have been through.